Lily Elliot

my goodness

2010-07-14T23:46:00.003-05:00

Well it sure has been awhile. I'm not sure how well it will work out but i guess if anything interesting happens this summer, well i'll be sure to give a thought to posting. So lets update shall we?

Well what the news was from the last post was that I am now officially a published poet. Back in September, I entered a poetry/short story contest and then a few months later, i got note that my poem was chosen (out of the THOUSANDS of entries) that my poem would be published. It was publish through Polar Expressions Canada and my poem can be found on page 59 of the book entitled "Surfacing". I am very excited and i am going to make sure that it is not the last to be published or at least out there...

Okay so on another note i was supposed to be going to two basketball camps at the UofW. Knowing that the UofW is known for its basketball and volleyball programs, I was expecting that i would be in for a very difficult week. Apparently not. I showed up and they were playing tag. So i waited outside on campus just checking out the area.... then a native man tried to bum a cig off me. So i gave him one. Just kidding not really but it was quite the day to say the least.

Thats it for now, Maybe ill be back with more?

Why Hello!

2010-05-06T20:49:00.003-05:00

It's been awhile. To be honest I have completely forgotten about this little blog. My computer got the super aids and broke down so I guess I stopped bloggin and stuck to facebook for the time being. Man this blog needs a makeover. Well I probably have big news, big stuff that has been in the works. I'm not sure if I am aloud to say anything yet but when May 15th rolls around I will be spreading some SICK NEWS! Well mediocre depending who you are. Well TATA for now until we meet again. And until we do, I hope you enjoy this photo of Raven Symone on a sagway....

hello there;

2010-01-16T21:30:00.000-06:00

it was so nice to meet you.

alice

2010-01-12T16:51:00.004-06:00

it's been awhile

happy new years by the way...

So exam week is approaching fast and the stress is already getting to me. Why do teachers think it's completely fine if they just assign copious amounts of homework? Do they not realize that every other teacher does that as well, leaving us students swamped and stressed beyond all reason?

It really sucks.

strange cases of deja vu;

2009-12-22T01:11:00.005-06:00

deja vu is an experience isn't it.

yes.

On more than one account have i felt strange cases of deja vu but there are two that i can vaguely remember, due to the fact that they recently occurred.

ONE

It was after our first basketball game in the tournament. The coach, two friends of mine, and i all went out to subway to have something to eat before we had to play again. This brought back the memories of when i went somewhere for a hockey tournament with two of my friends. We stayed at a hotel and there just so happened to be a subway connected to it. We had to play a game later that day so we went down and got subs. After we returned to our hotel room and ate our subs, we decided we wanted more. So we grabbed some money and ran back down in our sock feet to get more subs. I think we did this like 2 more times. And while we ventured down to subway we knocked on random hotel doors and ran giggling. These were good times.

TWO

Ever since I can remember, I had swimming lesson at the Dominion City Pool. My Nanny had to move away from Dominion City because of my papa's passing. It was far away from any of us and Nanny could not handle it by herself. Anyways every summer i would spend 2+ weeks there to have swimming lessons. Before each lesson (if it was later in the day) I would have a quick bowl of cereal and 2 sips of orange juice or chocolate milk. I was never very thirsty but nanny kept telling me that i needed to stay hydrated. Anyways If i had swimming lessons in the morning i would have ravioli after. When i finished my lesson, I'd come home, jum in the tub to get all the chlorine out and have some ravioli. This is what triggered my deja vu. Nannies towels always had the most amazing, calming, and soothing smells i have ever had the pleasure of being wrapped in. Tonight, as i was washing my face, I buried my face in a towel and smelt that smell. To you it is no big deal. But to me it is a reminder of old times. Memories being uncovered from carelessness and forgetfulness.

I love deja vu.

her;

2009-12-19T19:48:00.000-06:00

She was pretty, she used to climb trees. She made jewelry for her family for Christmas. She was the single mother of a son she loved. She tried her hardest, but just like the rest of us, she made mistakes. And we forgave her for them, just like we forgive you.

MLIA

2009-11-23T21:18:00.002-06:00

SO fckn funny:

Today, I went to pick up my little brother from school when I discovered he was in Detention. I asked the teacher why he was in trouble and she told me that today she was teaching the class about punctuation. She would choose a kid to say a sentence and she would announce the correct punctuation mark, like “Billy went to the store”, “Period”. So when my brother was called on, he said “Kotex fits” and without thinking the teacher actually said “Period”. I love my brother. MLIA

Today, I was babysitting my neighbor's six year old daughter. Dora The Explorer was on, and in the episode, there was a giant egg. When it hatched, a baby dinosaur came out and Boots the monkey asked "Is it a baby cow?". The little girl yelled "No, you dumbass!" then looked at me guiltily. I high fived her. MLIA

Today, we had a guidance lesson in school. We had a quiz were there were situations where kids were being bullied, and we had to choose the correct way to stand up to them. On one of the problems, a possible answer was, "If you don't stop, I'm going to tell everyone that you have herpes." I was pleased to find out that everyone in my class chose this answer. MLIA

The other day I learned that if you say 'beer can' with an English accent, you're saying 'bacon' with a Jamaican accent. Mind blown. MLIA

I will keep editing this post to add more and more MLIA posts

500

2009-11-11T15:25:00.002-06:00

So during spring break of the year 2011, I will be embarking on a school trip to Italy. Italy has alway been my dream vacation of choice ever since I can remember. Today, there is officially 500 days left until we depart on this once in a life time trip. I am so excited for it. The only thing I'm afraid of is not coming back home.

I have started a countdown:

Countdown to Italy:
500 days until departure.

I am going to put this EVERYWHERE. Just because.

the wait;

2009-11-05T19:35:00.001-06:00

everyone says

the wait is over

no one knows

the wait has just begun.

done part two

2009-11-05T15:07:00.003-06:00

Okay. I get it. He's in your life now. But there is a few important things you need to remember.

Don't forget the little people. You're killing me. You blow me off all the time. You break my heart and don't even know it. Because of him. Because you need to be with him. I have never felt this upset before. The last time I was this angry was in the eigth grade. And it's your fault. This time I'm not even going to blame it on myself. Every spare second you spend with him and you don't even give me the time of day to help YOU with YOUR homework. I wait at the door for you, waiting to leave while you converse with him for twenty minutes. Not only do I help you with homework, but I do it for you as you sit across from me and talk with him! You won't even give me the time of day as I do your homework! I do so much for you! I would do so much more for you! And you won't even talk to me.

So when he breaks your heart. And leaves you standing by yourself. With no one. You're going to regret losing us little people. But unfortuantely for me, i'm not going anywhere. Because I just can't.

I can't take this anymore! I am so done.

I also said that the last time, but hey, still here.

seven

2009-11-05T15:05:00.001-06:00

I know you're concerend about him and all,

but jesus christ,

goodbye then.

speechless

2009-10-30T23:18:00.002-05:00

so I am at home,

by myself,

no one is here.

happy now?

•

Tomorrow is your birthday bud.
Happy birthday Alexander.
I miss you more than words can fathom.
I wish I could say I'll see you soon,
but I can't.

•

What a horrible day.
I wish I could fall asleep for a while,
And just
Not
Get
Up.
.

evergone

2009-10-26T22:37:00.004-05:00

Now let's find a way to work around this one.

If it wasn't for you,

I'd pass.

Big time.

I have fought very hard. I thought I was winning too.

Turns out,

I'm not.

I cannot let him ruin it.

I cannot let myself ruin it because of him.

But when you say shit like that,

It. Is. So. On.

You're so rude.

You make no sense.

You're needy,

and whiny.

But you make her happy.

So don't fuck this up.

I am already done and it's hardly begun.

How do you recover, when all you had is ever gone?

I don't think you do.

Now I feel horrible.

2009-10-24T18:51:00.000-05:00

I really don't deserve you.

Well that's okay because what you think doesn't matter really..

2009-10-24T18:49:00.001-05:00

haha.

oh.

2009-10-24T18:44:00.005-05:00

If it makes you happy.

It makes me happy.

But please don't expect me to not have a problem with it.

Because fuck,

I do.

If he hurts you, I will

break.

his.

face.

good times never seem so good.

2009-10-22T22:53:00.003-05:00

unpredictable- adjective [uhn-pre-dik-ta-ble]: not predictable; not to be foreseen or fortold; an unpredictable occurance.

it's so amazing.

you get me everytime.

should be crying but I just can't let it show.

2009-10-21T19:23:00.005-05:00

Is it so hard to ask for 30 seconds alone?

Yes. Yes it is.

So the past couple of days have been moderately normal. Until yesterday of course. But I will not tell you what happened yesterday. I will just rant in incomprehensible and borderline beautiful ways.

I am so sick of heartbreak. I find this impossible. Through out my whole life, I have been the one to lose. I have lost nearly everything that has ever meant anything to me. (Except for family but it goes without saying)

I have lost activities that made me happy.

I have lost two possible lives I could have lived.

I have lost a language.

I have lost my confidence.

I have lost my father.

I have lost my best friend.

I have lost my fight.

I continue to lose my war.

But I continue to fight. Every second I fight. I fight for you. But it's not working because:

I continue to lose my war.

Oh darling, make it go away.

i cannot

2009-10-04T19:47:00.002-05:00

I cannot walk away from this unscathed, because I'm not.

I cannot pretend this never happened, because it did.

I cannot stop feeling sad, because i do.

I cannot let this go, because I love you.

I am more than ready to tell you that you have hurt me for the last time. I am just not ready to tell them that you have hurt me for the last time.

Because no matter, how long a letter I write explaining how hard I have fought for them, I will always look like the one who left. Like the one who through them all away. But it was not me.

Why do you let her keep your balls in the front pocket of her fanny pack that hangs from her khakis? I would really like to know what is really going on.

not get up again.

2009-10-04T19:34:00.004-05:00

Well it happened.

Hurt happened again.

But when does it not?

People everywhere say "Life sucks sometimes." and they are right.

And it turns out, it never stops 'sucking'

There is a small period of time, where the victim will be pushed

and pushed

pushed

and pushed again,

but there is also a period of time,

in which you cannot fix it anymore.

and no matter how hard you try,

how many tears you cry

and how many time your heart mends after it has been broken,

you will not get up again.

you will fall for good.

So I say to you, that I am very done.

And I,

Lily Spencer Elliot,

will not get up again.

"When touched by love, everyone becomes a poet." Plato

2009-10-02T17:49:00.004-05:00

I am getting

excited

happy

and

nervous.

For ALL the wrong reasons.

You see so much bad can come from this one moment that i have been waiting for. Waiting for 2 years. or if we get specific:

December 12th 2007.

or if you want to get technical:

June 7th 2007

or if you are (unintentionally) confused:

A long time.

This will be the one moment that will make me smile and ruin my life. Possibly at the same time.

You see father I am not little anymore, I am at an age where the decision no longer belongs to you. It is mine now.

But that never meant you couldn't try.

experienced and regurgitated

Yours truly,

-Lily S. Elliot

glee

2009-09-16T20:40:00.002-05:00

My name is Lily S. Elliot so I better start acting like it. Because I'm not.

School is overwhelming. I'm not going to complain because that would suck. But I will say that I'm not ready, but I damn well have to be.

I can't feel anymore. Things so great will happen and I'll stifle a yawn, or something horrible will transpire and I'll hardly even flinch.

Was that complaining?

Teenagers frusterate me.

That too?

I wish that I didn't have homework so I could read more.

Whoops

My name is Lily S. Elliot so I better start acting like it. Because I'm not.

anais nin iii

2009-09-12T23:47:00.002-05:00

there's even more. of this inspiration.

There is not one big cosmic meaning for all, there is only the meaning we each give to our life, an individual meaning, an individual plot, like an individual novel, a book for each person.

There are many ways to be free. One of them is to transcend reality by imagination, as I try to do.

The role of a writer is not to say what we all can say, but what we are unable to say.

The possession of knowledge does not kill the sense of wonder and mystery. There is always more mystery.

Living never wore one out so much as the effort not to live.

Truth is something which can't be told in a few words. Those who simplify the universe only reduce the expansion of its meaning.

We travel, some of us forever, to seek other states, other lives, other souls.

if I...

2009-09-11T19:58:00.004-05:00

So yesterday, something quite amazing happened. I saved someones life. I was talking to a friend of mine. He doesn't live anywhere near me. And he was feeling just as I do. Sad, depressed... Etc etc. And one day he started our conversation like this "Today was good until a minute ago. Now I am seriously considering ending my life." So of course my initial response was: NO! And I ended up talking to him and calming him down until he was feeling more normal and relaxed. I felt like a real psycologist because I was saything things I would never say in a normal situation. I tend to do that when I get into something I really care about. So anyways he feels better now. And he thanks me every second for the things I said to him. This was one of them. "Even if life sucks, it is still amazing. Life is the greatest gift you will ever be given and why would you ever want to throw that away?" I surprised myself. And it is just the greatest feeling to know that someone will live today because of what you said to them. Because you made them realize their life is worth more than you'll ever know... It was a great feeling. It still is.

neglected.

2009-09-09T19:10:00.003-05:00

So school started today and I can honestly say I shouldn't have looked forward to it.

this couldn't be more unexpected.

2009-09-07T15:03:00.003-05:00

I don't know what it is about mad tv that makes me laugh from my toes.
I don't know what it is about Dr. Pepper that makes it taste so sweet even after the 15th can.
I don't know what it is about reading that makes me do it all night long.
I don't know what it is about my bed that keeps me safe from the monster underneath.
I don't know what it is about crayons that makes me want to colour outside the lines
I don't know what it is about my family that makes me love them more each second.
I don't know what it is about music that makes me want to sing
I don't know what it is about my brother that makes me want to punch him in the noes.
I don't know what it is about you that makes me want to stop moving

I don't know, but it's okay.

Change without love.

2009-09-05T22:15:00.002-05:00

It is quite amazing how fast things can change. I sit in my room, day after day, exploring the thought process or colouring with crayons, and the next day, I wake up brand new. Not in a good way, nor in bad. Just different.

So school is approaching. I start on the ninth and I can honestly say I look forward to it. I love school but does the good cancel out the bad? No. But I love school none the less. It will be, for the lack of a better word, an adventure. New people, new teachers, new courses, an most importantly, new experiences.

So I don't like change. But I don't want everything to stay the same. It's so simple.

The step and the walk

2009-08-29T01:12:00.001-05:00

And the lack of update has an excuse.

I updated my about me. Not that it matters but to me it is important.

anais nin ii

2009-08-10T22:02:00.002-05:00

Her quotes, i feel i can relate to, in some way or another:

"Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage."

"This diary is my kief, hashish, and opium pipe. This is my drug and my vice."

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."

"I postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing."

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world not possibly born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."

"I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger as reason. I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. Anything I cannot transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesn't impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls."

"Something is always born of excess: great art was born of great terror, great loneliness, great inhibitions, instabilities, and it always balances them."

"Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing."

"Dreams are necessary to life."

"We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are."

"People living deeply have no fear of death."

anais nin

2009-08-10T21:53:00.002-05:00

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world not possibly born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born." - Anais Nin

and there's this one world
i want to live in,
but i fear it's coming down.
and its killing me.
over and over again.
it is impossible to find solace.
and the when the day comes
when i rebuild every broken road,
i will hold your hand
and together we will dive into the infinity.

it will be okay, we will feel happy, and life will go on.

yourghost

2009-08-04T18:25:00.004-05:00

So it has been a stressful and emotional week for me so i am definitely enjoying my downtime in my pyjamas and doing close to nothing.

I have been watching Big Brother ONE! Because I have an addiction to the show and was never able to get enough!

I get head aches all the time. It is unpleasant.

I am going crazy in ways that are hard to explain.

Big Brother 1 theme song.

Everyone is looking for some tenderness.

No one's born to live this life alone.

Everyone is special, special in their own way.

Everyone is looking for the guiding hand

Cause we all love to stay alive.

Everyone is searching for the diamond inside.

Live, 'cause we're living today

Feel the thrill of life and don't be afraid

Live, be a part of the chain

The chain that can tie us together again

Everyone's the center of their universe

Everyone is born a lonely star

No one can be perfect

We can only be who we are

Live, 'cause we're living today

Feel the thrill of life and don't be afraid

Live, be a part of the chain

The chain that can tie us together again

We criticize each other

when we should be building bridges.

We are so judgmental

to the people on the streets

Where life is not worth living

where there's no one you can turn to

So we should be building bridges

for the sake of you and me...

Live, 'cause we're living today

Feel the thrill of life and don't be afraid

Live, be a part of the chain

The chain that can tie us together again...

Everyone is looking for some tenderness...

happy is happy. try it.

2009-07-26T22:30:00.001-05:00

And the day came
when the risk to remain tight in a bud
was more painful than
the risk it took to
blossom

sad songs and sing alongs

2009-07-08T22:44:00.002-05:00

i

feel

so

lost

without

you

But you were never here in the first place.

Strange cases of nostalgia:
it feels like I'm longing for someone who doesn't exist. But you do.

It makes sense

i know what im talking about

Overheard everywhere

2009-07-06T19:28:00.002-05:00

So I stumbled upon this website by accident.

Don't you just love when that happens?

And it is hilarious.

http://www.overheardeverywhere.com/

People just hear random shit and post it there and it is funny! like this one:

PA: Paging arriving passenger Juan Sanchez from Mexico City. Please return to gate B4 to retrieve your piñata.

this is how we are broken

2009-06-29T00:13:00.003-05:00

it doesn't just emotionally hurt anymore
physically now too.

it b u r n s

stick a fork in me, im done

2009-06-22T22:00:00.001-05:00

So today I took a quiz on facebook (i know right?) and it was about 'What your eyes say" and this was my result:

Sad Eyes:

Your eyes tell the world that you are always sad. You are a deeper thinker than anyone knows. You always look at everything in a depressing manner and no matter what your eyes will never smile. You are always thinking about something other than what everyone is saying. You usually say little or nothing at all. You are not in many sports and hate everyone. You are usually found in your room or in the closet writing depressing poems and books.

This is what I thought of my results:

Number one:
How do you fucking know me so well? That is me. DAMN.

Number two:
When a quiz on facebook starts defining who i am, something is wrong.

But the quiz isn't all right. There is something i will smile for. You

No i don't mean YOU I mean the one who kills me. Ya that you

Why do i bother.

I used to be a fighter before i met you.

Dream/Nightmare contest

2009-06-21T16:25:00.002-05:00

I have decided to do it. I published my first piece not five minutes ago. Here is a link:

http://imagination-x.deviantart.com/art/When-parts-of-you-die-126742169

I Hope you enjoy.

when all is said and done

2009-06-20T20:17:00.004-05:00

Well hi there. It has been awhile. So let me tell you about all of the things i have done.

Number one: Stress
I have had exams the past week and they have nearly killed me. I studied so hard and did my best and then they were super easy and i had nothing to worry about. Damn. Also school is over and i don't know how i feel about it. Damn?

Number two: Poetry maybe.
I have been lagging in the poetry field. I have done several works that i am not entirely disgusted of, but i guess that is better than none. I think i will enter a contest over deviant art and publish my first works online. I will have a link on here as soon as possible. But again i am not entirely sure. Damn.

Number three: My latest project
I am hoping to start a clothing company online of completely original designs made by yours truly. I have already planned several designs and am quite excited. But it will take work, money, and time like everything else. Damn. I can't really spend money right now due to the fact that i am in travel group at my school and we are going to Italy/Greece and I am pumped! But it takes money. Welcome to my crossroads. Damn.

Number four: Bjork
I love her.

I'm pretty sure that is all for now. Until next time.
-Lily Elliot

Bright Ideas - Laswell

2009-05-25T19:18:00.001-05:00

Back down off the sun
I need a light to tell the time
I'm sure the sky wants its black back
Air attack
So in love with the view
You bombast
It's just like a sunburn
But contagious
You really are outrageous
When you've got
Your bright ideas on

And I believe you when you say that the mail is killing you
Cause I believe the mail-man is slowly killing me too

Ease up on your mouth
I can't make any words out
The fruitflies all buzzing out
Man, what are you getting to?
You may be right
And I may be wrong
I know that you've got to
Hang your bright ideas on

And I believe you when you say that the mail is killing you
Cause I believe the mail-man is slowly killing me too

You may say
I'm not here

When infinity dies

2009-05-13T16:45:00.003-05:00

Today at lunch time, I walked home in the pouring rain.
It didn't help that it was windy as hell either...
Crazy you ask?
Possibly...
Insane?
Absolutely.
It may have been many things but one thing I am sure of is...
That it was the best thing I have ever done.
I can't really explain it to you...
But I felt so infinite.
For the first time in my life I felt infinite.
And it felt amazing.
The rain was pelting my face and the wind was ruffling my hair
I was soaked from head to toe
When I returned from my adventure,
I had the biggest smile on my face.
It's the biggest smile on my face in a long time.
I felt brand new.
It was just too amazing for words,
but I had to try...
I loved every minute of it
But

--

Today the bus for Moosejaw left today.
You were on it.
I thought I had lost you already
I knew that hurt like hell
but this is a new kind of pain.
It's never hurt so much before.
And you were right there.
As I approached my locker
You were right there at arms length
I wanted
no
Needed to say something
but there was nothing that I wanted to say
That would have made you stay with me.
So you left
And I guess a part of me did too.
For the first time ever
I was biting back sobs
I really wanted to cry
Not only for you
but for me
because I felt like I should have said something
And now I regret it with every bone in my body
for me this is a brand new gone.
The funny part is they will be back Friday
If so, Then why does it hurt so much?

isabella, stand a little bit taller

2009-04-26T20:22:00.002-05:00

I still feel like shit...

I guess I am waiting for you...

i am sincerely sorry

2009-04-16T21:11:00.002-05:00

I feel like such a downer lately. I hope you understand that that is normally not who i am. I love to look at the world like i am seeing everything for the first or last time. But lately I have just been feeling numb. More sad than ever.

I'm sorry if i brought you down.

I am sorry

I'm sorry

sorry.

2009-04-16T21:07:00.003-05:00

You spelt Caesar wrong

Its Caesar

Not Ceaser

Sorry.

Enjoy your evening.

Miss you.

thanks for watching as I fall

2009-04-16T20:55:00.002-05:00

I tried to burn my homework last night,
the world had become a little less happier.
Today i went for a haircut in the city, and the man who would always stand at the corner and sing about Jesus wasn't there.
The world had become a little less happier.
I saw some people I knew who used to be my good friends (which shouldn't be the case) were walking to the movies, I thought I should be with them. I think it's my fault.
the world had become a little less happier.
I went roller-blading today ( which i do everyday) and i fell..
The world had become a little less happier
Keys to the VIP just came on
The world had become a little less happier.
One of the guys on that show's name is Peaches
The world just got a little less happier.
I can't find my remote
The world just became a little less happier
I found it.
The world just became a little happier.

Thanks for reading. Or not.

latin

2009-04-05T00:59:00.002-05:00

i have decided that i will start teaching myself Latin....

Why do I care you ask?

You don't

This is my blog.

shut up

birthdays

2009-04-01T21:03:00.001-05:00

Mother nature,
please stop dropping your dandruff
into my garden.
Try head and shoulders
would you please.

bob saget... go away

2009-03-29T00:09:00.002-05:00

Habbo Hotel is just a online dating service for VERY sad loners. Sorry if I offended anyone who plays habbo... I just needed to get that off my chest.

DaysWithMyFather

2009-03-26T20:45:00.004-05:00

Its things like this that really make you appreciate life and art. This is a beautiful story by Phillip Toledano. Please read it and then pass it down. It is a truly wonderful story...

www.dayswithmyfather.com

Thursday

2009-03-26T19:34:00.003-05:00

This is just my opinion but i hate Thursdays

Thursdays are just reminders that it isn't Friday yet. Plus you are getting tired of work/school. One day until spring break. The only upside.... Have fun kids

DeviantArt

2009-03-17T20:38:00.002-05:00

YOU mean the WORLD to someone.

I was on DeviantArt today and i found that quote above and i felt so much better. If you don't know what deviant art is check it out. I love it. Art, poetry, animation, and more. It's so amazing.

Go

Please

All you need is a computer and a soul.

Oh! The places you'll go!

2009-03-16T19:07:00.001-05:00

I think I have posted this before but if you haven't read it... Please do. It is Oh! The places you'll go! By DR.Suess Yes The whole book.

Oh, the Places You'll Go! Congratulations! Today is your day. You're off to Great Places! You're off and away! You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go. You'll look up and down streets. Look 'em over with care. About some you will say, "I don't choose to go there." With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet, you're too smart to go down any not-so-good street. And you may not find any you'll want to go down. In that case, of course, you'll head straight out of town. It's opener there in the wide open air. Out there things can happen and frequently do to people as brainy and footsy as you. And when things start to happen, don't worry. Don't stew. Just go right along. You'll start happening too. OH! THE PLACES YOU'LL GO! You'll be on your way up! You'll be seeing great sights! You'll join the high fliers who soar to high heights. You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed. You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead. Wherever you fly, you'll be the best of the best. Wherever you go, you will top all the rest. Except when you don' t Because, sometimes, you won't. I'm sorry to say so but, sadly, it's true and Hang-ups can happen to you. You can get all hung up in a prickle-ly perch. And your gang will fly on. You'll be left in a Lurch. You'll come down from the Lurch with an unpleasant bump. And the chances are, then, that you'll be in a Slump. And when you're in a Slump, you're not in for much fun. Un-slumping yourself is not easily done. You will come to a place where the streets are not marked. Some windows are lighted. But mostly they're darked. A place you could sprain both you elbow and chin! Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in? How much can you lose? How much can you win? And IF you go in, should you turn left or right... or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite? Or go around back and sneak in from behind? Simple it's not, I'm afraid you will find, for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind. You can get so confused that you'll start in to race down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space, headed, I fear, toward a most useless place. The Waiting Place... ...for people just waiting. Waiting for a train to go or a bus to come, or a plane to go or the mail to come, or the rain to go or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow or waiting around for a Yes or a No or waiting for their hair to grow. Everyone is just waiting. Waiting for the fish to bite or waiting for wind to fly a kite or waiting around for Friday night or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake or a pot to boil, or a Better Break or a sting of pearls, or a pair of pants or a wig with curls, or Another Chance. Everyone is just waiting. NO! That's not for you! Somehow you'll escape all that waiting and staying. You'll find the bright places where Boom Bands are playing. With banner flip-flapping, once more you'll ride high! Ready for anything under the sky. Ready because you're that kind of a guy! Oh, the places you'll go! There is fun to be done! There are points to be scored. there are games to be won. And the magical things you can do with that ball will make you the winning-est winner of all. Fame! You'll be famous as famous can be, with the whole wide world watching you win on TV. Except when they don't. Because, sometimes, they won't. I'm afraid that some times you'll play lonely games too. Games you can't win 'cause you'll play against you. All Alone! Whether you like it or not, Alone will be something you'll be quite a lot. And when you're alone, there's a very good chance you'll meet things that scare you right out of your pants. There are some, down the road between hither and yon, that can scare you so much you won't want to go on. But on you will go though the weather be foul On you will go though your enemies prowl On you will go though the Hakken-Kraks howl Onward up many a frightening creek, though your arms may get sore and your sneakers may leak. On and on you will hike and I know you'll hike far and face up to your problems whatever they are. You'll get mixed up, of course, as you already know. You'll get mixed up with many strange birds as you go. So be sure when you step. Step with care and great tact and remember that Life's a Great Balancing Act. Just never forget to be dexterous and deft. And never mix up your right foot with your left. And will you succeed? Yes! You will, indeed! (98 and 3 / 4 percent guaranteed.) KID, YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS! So... be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shea, you're off to Great Places! Today is your day! Your mountain is waiting. So...get on your way! ---Dr. Seuss

someone needs to shut Russel Brand up.

2009-03-15T00:14:00.000-05:00

I've been going crazy waiting for that something that will never happen.

Pontchartrain

2009-03-12T17:15:00.003-05:00

I wish I was more interesting. I seriously have nothing interesting to say.

Come down to lake Pontchartrain
rest your soul and feed your brain
that's where you will get to see
everything the water can be.

Today....

2009-03-06T20:12:00.005-06:00

When I was walking back to school from lunch today and the most wonderful thing happened. I heard wind chimes. I always walk the same way so they must have just recently been put up. It was wonderful because it showed a bit of hope for the blandest of winter days. The gentle chimes had filled the air and sung with the wind. It was beautiful. I had to stop and listen. I wanted to thank the nice person who put them up. Also when i had ventured in to the middle of the open white field, i had notice that everything around me was quite magnificent as well. It seemed as if everything had been left undisturbed except for the path straight through the middle of the field. So I stepped off. Just so i could show myself I followed my own path. But was it ever beautiful. I wanted to take a picture. It looks so gloomy a disappointing when you first look out the window, but when you look harder, it's amazing at what you can see.

These are simple questions...

2009-03-04T19:22:00.000-06:00

...they have simple answers.

quotes

2009-03-04T18:35:00.002-06:00

You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life
Winston Churchill

Never say more than is necessary.
Richard Brinsley Sheridan

The worst thing you can try to do is cling to something that is gone, or to recreate it.
Johnette Napolitano

GetOverIt

2009-03-02T20:32:00.001-06:00

I have taken over a pen name. I call my self Lily Elliot.

LoveMeDead

2009-03-02T18:04:00.002-06:00

Haven't posted in a while. I have nothing to say. I have been writing. And stuff...

High maintenance means
you're a gluttonous queen
narcissistic and mean.

PleaseletmeSPEAK

2009-02-25T20:16:00.002-06:00

Have you ever heard the song...

No

you should listen

Shadow Boy and Dream Girl by Jude Skylar

2009-02-25T19:45:00.003-06:00

I found this on deviant art and it put me nearly to tears
http://septemberbreeze.deviantart.com/

The boy with black wings flies high above,
Searching for someone to call his true love.
His hands slice gracefully through the air,
His heart beats quickly without a care.

The girl with brown eyes sits below on the ground,
Feeding the birds and not making a sound.
Her eyes blink slowly as if holding in words,
Hateful sentences that are nothing but absurd.

The boy sees her sorrow and soars to below,
He lands by her side and whispers a hello.
Her masterpiece smile sends him into tears,
And she holds him tightly to get rid of her fears.

He grabs her shaking hands and looks into her eyes,
Telling her stories of the beauty of the sky.
He pulls her closely and jumps up towards the sun,
Flying to the place where her life had begun.

Forever together in a world so afar,
The boy who's an angel and the girl that's a star.

Little Cream Soda

2009-02-24T19:58:00.001-06:00

Well every highway that I go down seems to be longer than the last one that I knew about, oh well

And every girl that I walk around seems to be more of an illusion than the last one I found, oh well

And this old man in front of me
wearing canes and ruby rings
It's like a tame explosion when he sings

With every change to set himself on fire, he just keeps doing the same thing

Well each beautiful thing I come across tells me to stop moving and shake this riddle off, oh well

There was a time when all i wanted was my ice cream cold and a little cream soda, oh well, oh well

And a wooden box and an alley full of rocks was all i had to care about, oh well, oh well, oh well

Now my mind is filled with rubber tires and forest fires and whether I'm a liar and lots of other situations where I don't know what to do
At which time God screams to me
There's nothing left for me to tell you

Nothing left for me to tell you
Nothing left
Oh well
Oh well
Oh well

Oh well

Oh well
Oh well
Oh well

Oh well

thebeginningistheendisthebeginning

2009-02-23T19:27:00.002-06:00

Send a heartbeat to
The void that cries through you
Relive the pictures that have come to pass
For now we stand alone
The world is lost and blown
And we are flesh and blood disintegrate
With no more to hate

Is it bright where you are
And Have the people changed
Does it make you happy you're so strange
And in your darkest hour
Now all secrets fade
We can watch the world devoured in its pain

Delivered from the blast
The last of a line of lasts
The pale princess of a palace cracked
And now the kingdom comes
Crashing down undone
And I am a master of a nothing place
Of recoil and grace

Is it bright where you are
And Have the people changed
Does it make you happy you're so strange
And in your darkest hour
Now all secrets fade
We can watch the world devoured in its pain

Time has stopped before us
The sky cannot ignore us
No one can separate us
For we are all that is left
The echo bounces off me
The shadow lost beside me
There's no more need to pretend
Cause now I can begin again

Is it bright where you are
And Have the people changed
Does it make you happy you're so strange
And in your darkest hour
Now all secrets fade
We can watch the world devoured in its pain
Strange
Strange
Strange

THESCREAM

2009-02-22T00:35:00.003-06:00

I was walking along a path with two friends—the sun was setting—suddenly the sky turned blood red—I paused, feeling exhausted, and leaned on the fence—there was blood and tongues of fire above the blue-black fjord and the city—my friends walked on, and I stood there trembling with anxiety—and I sensed an infinite scream passing through nature.

Beautiful.

sometimesthingspeoplesayareokay

2009-02-21T23:19:00.002-06:00

"Stress is when you wake up screaming and you realize you haven't fallen asleep yet."

"Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you respond to it."

"Under all speech that is good for anything, there is a silence that is better. Silence is deep as eternity, speech as shallow as time."

"Every child is an artist. The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up." - Pablo Picasso

"The only time a goodbye is painful is when you know you'll never say hello again."

"If you cry because the sun has left your life, your tears will prevent you from seeing the stars."

"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow"

"To imagine is everything, to know is nothing at all." - Anatole France

"The eyes are the windows to the soul; if you look into them long enough, one's true self is revealed." - Nicole Dawson

"I love to be alone. I never found the companion that was so companionable as solitude." - Henry David Thoreau

"I never let schooling interfere with my education." - Mark Twain

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on." - Robert Frost

"You are only what you are when no one is looking" - Robert C. Edwards

"If you want to be happy, be."

"The man who never reads will never be read; he who never quotes will never be quoted. He who will not use the thoughts of other men's brains proves that he has no brains of his own." - Charles Haddon Spurgeon

"One ought, every day at least, to hear a little song, read a good poem, see a fine picture and, if possible, speak a few reasonable words." - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

"If you can't get rid of the skeleton in your closet, you'd best teach it to dance." - George Bernard Shaw

"Not all those who wander are lost."

"The way I see it, if you want a rainbow you have to put up with the rain."

"I find I always have to write something on a steamed mirror." - Elaine Dundy

"Better by far you should forget and smile. Than that you should remember and be sad." - Christina Rossetti

"Time you enjoy waisting is not time waisted."

"Look at everything as though you were seeing it either for the first or last time. Then your time on earth will be filled with glory." - Betty Smith

"Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in a square hole, the ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status quo.You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them, because they change things. They push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, and are the ones who'll do it."

Potential

2009-02-20T23:46:00.005-06:00

I found a poem online that had much potential. it was written buy some depressed emo girl. The end part only talked about cutting her self. But i turned it in to an emotional poem. The part i wrote is written in BOLD

-Explode-

No one knows
how much pain is inside of you.
You lock yourself away
pretending that everything is ok.
When deep inside its tearing you apart,
you think that you have it under control
until you lose it all,
You feel that wonderful ripping sound
that explodes from the back of your throat
You try to give an explanation
of why you're on your knee's crying
but not one sounds like sanity
You knew that you were feeling out of place
but you thought it'd pass
but now every pair of eyes
are waiting to tell those who were closed
you ache for someone to be there
to care.
The mystery that is you
has been revealed.
Now the weakest
they survive
because the strongest
Will explode.

SweetDream

2009-02-20T22:46:00.000-06:00

If I could write out my own dream
For the next time that I sleep
You'd be the first one that I see
And I the last one that you keep
The dream would go on and on
While we sway
Against all things thrown our way
And the morning would be so cruel
When it came
With sunshine and warmth to bring
For announcing the end of my sweet dream
For announcing the end of my sweet dream

theoneilove.

2009-02-20T22:44:00.000-06:00

i'm all packed up now early in the morning
i'll take my leave
i'll bring your words along with me
maybe one day they will mean something

for now they buzz and crumble down
a little bit too easily
from a time that i am not quite over
what the hell is wrong with me

i might be gone a little while
i guess we'll see
i gotta make a home outta somewhere
and you're all over this city

and it'll take a flight to figure out
where i'm gonna finally land
and the time it takes for me get there
i'll be one to start again

but i should probably say that i'm unsure why i'm running
running away from
the only thing i want
yeah, i should probably say that i'm unsure why i'm running
running away from the one i love

and if the plane lifts off
i'll write you a letter, to say goodbye
and i will make it long and maybe lie just a little
tell you that i'm doing fine

then i'll send it out and let things be
if not for you
for me and for the time i've spent foolishly loving thee

but i should probably say that i'm unsure why i'm running
running away from
the only thing i want
yeah, i should probably say that i'm unsure why i'm running
running away from the one i love

NOTOUT

2009-02-20T22:43:00.001-06:00

I’m not gonna fall down today,
Instead I will buckle my knees and sway
Against sweet memories
Against memories

I’ve gotta get outta here today, today
There is too much room in this bed where I lay
The street buzzes for me, below, buzzes for me

And if the breeze blows me down
I’ll take my time to come around,
But I’m not out, oh, I’m not out

Wish I could pull you down today,
From that storm high up that’s taking you away
What would you say to me?
What would you say to me?

And if the breeze blows me down
I’ll take my time to come around,
But I’m not out, oh, I’m not out

And I’m sure that I am tangled up in things you said out loud to me
So recklessly,
And it’s easier to sing the things I wanna say to you,
So I’ll sing, you’re losing me my love,
You’re losing me my love,
Are you losing me my love?

I'd Be Lying

2009-02-20T22:42:00.001-06:00

won't you let me give you a hand
i have an extra I'm not using
won't you let me lighten your load
i mean after all your legs are shaking

and i can understand
all i need is your hand
oh won't you take the fall
it is me after all

won't you let me match your stride
i can slow down if you want to
we can handle it side by side
what do you say girl don't you want to

and i can understand
all i need is your hand
oh won't you take the fall
it is me after all

I'd be lying
if i ran away
I'd be lying
if i ran another way

and so I'll stay

but won't you let me be your man
I'm strong enough you know that i can
be the one to ease your mind
ease your mind

and i can understand
all i need is your hand
oh won't you take the fall
it is is me after all

I'd be lying
if i ran another way
I'd be lying
if i ran another way
and so I'll stay

won't you let me give you a hand
i have an extra I'm not using
won't you let me lighten your load
i mean after all your legs are shaking

and i can understand
all i need is your hand
oh won't you take the fall
it is me after all

there's not much that you can do
to get me to run away from you

I'd be lying
if i ran away
I'd be lying
if i ran another away

How The Day Sounds

2009-02-20T22:41:00.002-06:00

Oh who would have ever known this?
Could be this easy
I was a long, long way off
Then just like that it was over
Everything I knew of love
I was a long, long way off

And I think I like how the day sounds
Like how the day sounds through this new song

Thank you for opening the window
The sky is clear as my mind is now
I was a long, long way off
Join me in welcoming the sun in
It's much brighter than the night I hid in
I was a long, long way off

And I think I like how the day sounds
Like how the day sounds through this new song
And I think I like how the day sounds
Like how the day sounds through this new song

From a long way down.

Yeah, it's well worth the time that its taken to get here now
Yeah, it's well worth the time that its taken to get here now

Ba da dum...

So go ahead and bang a gong
Nothing can drown out the sound and the whisper of my love

And I think I like how the day sounds
Like how the day sounds through this new song
And I think I like how the day sounds
Like how the day sounds through this new song
Through this new song
Through this new song

And the blinds have all been drawn
I know where I belong, where I belong,
Where I belong
And the blinds have all been drawn
I know where I belong
Where I belong

And I think I like how the day sounds
Like how the day sounds through this new song
And I think I like how the day sounds
Like how the day sounds through this new song

Oh, won't you sing along
Oh, my love won't you sing along
Oh, won't you sing along
Oh, my love won't you sing along
Oh, won't you sing along
Oh, my love won't you sing along
Oh, won't you sing along
Oh, my love won't you sing along

Farewell

2009-02-20T22:41:00.001-06:00

my love i cannot stay
my love i am running late
my love all has not been a waste
in a life that you have brought upon me

so farewell love this is goodbye let's not take our time
so farewell love this isn't getting any easier
and you let go to what the end will show
ba ba da ba da da da

my love i cannot stay
my love all has not been a waste
my love i am running late
from the life that you have brought upon me

so farewell love this is goodbye let's not take our time
so farewell love this isn't getting any easier
and you let go to what the end will show
ba ba da ba da da da

so farewell love this is goodbye let's not take our time
so farewell love this isn't getting any easier
and you let go but to what end will show
ba ba da ba da da da

i'm gonna sing this for you
i'm gonna sing this for you
i'm gonna sing this for you

so farewell love this is goodbye let's not take our time
so farewell love this isn't getting any easier
and you let go to what the end will show
ba ba da ba da da da

DaysGoesOn

2009-02-20T22:40:00.003-06:00

I've tried but I couldn't find any warning of you, dear
It's hard to make any sense of what I feel here

All I know
Is that my days go on and on
Without you here, without you here
My days go on and on
Without you here, without you here

I beg your pardon, love
But you've interrupted me
And the sad song that's played
Like a drum inside of me

My, my, what a fool am I
For allowing this to be
But this fool cannot ignore
The light when he sees you

And my days go on and on
Without you here, without you here

ComesAndGoesAndWaves

2009-02-20T22:40:00.001-06:00

This one's for the lonely
The ones that seek and find
Only to be let down
Time after time

This one's for the torn down
The experts at the fall
Common friends get up now
You're not alone at all

And this part was for her
This part was for her
This part was for her
Does she remember?

It comes and goes in waves, i....

This one's for the faithless
The ones that are surprised
They are only where they are now
Regardless of their fight

This one's for believing
If only for it's sake
Common friends get up now
Love is to be made

And this part was for her
This part was for her
This part was for her
Does she remember?

It comes and goes in waves,
I am only let to wonder why
It comes and goes in waves
I am only let to wonder why
Why I try

This is for the ones who stand
For the ones who try again
For the ones who need a hand
For the ones who think they can

It comes and goes in waves,
I am only let to wonder why
It comes and goes in waves
I am only let to wonder why
Why I try

AcrossTheUniverse

2009-02-20T22:12:00.000-06:00

Have you seen this movie?

If not,

you
must
see
it.

It changed me.
Amazing.

WithoutYou

2009-02-20T21:39:00.001-06:00

Every word you say to me I'm calm as your hypocrisy
your lips are filled with sugar, but your taste is bittersweet
and I don't wanna throw away, the time we spent, the mess we made together
I think were better, alone
we started out with chemistry, you finished every breath for me
but now the air is changing
I reach in you pull back, it's awkward we know that it's gone so wrong

I should know I'm better off without you
but I can't let go when your in my arms
how do I fall out of love, how do I fall out of love, without you

well all the different frequency, we argue or just disagree
on simple things, we pull each others strings
I'm turning into something, that I don't wanna be
you always find a way to bring the worst out of me

I should know I'm better off without you
but i can't let go when your in my arms
how do I fall out of love, how do I fall out of love, without you

I gotta find out who I am, without you
take a little time to figure out the lieing and the cheating,
what keeps my heart beating,
without you, without you

I should know I'm better off without you
but I can't let go when your in my arms
how do I fall out of love, how do I fall out of love, without you

Alas, I cannot swim.

2009-02-20T21:38:00.001-06:00

Theres a house across the river
but alas i cannot swim
And a garden of such beauty
that the flowers seem to grin
Theres a house across the river
but alas i cannot swim
I'll live my life regretting that i never jumped in!

Theres a boy across the river
with short black curly hair
He wants to be my lover
and i want to be his peer
Theres a boy across the river
but alas i cannot swim
And i never will get to put my arms around him

Theres a life across the river
that was ment for me
instead i live my life in constant misery
Theres a life across the river
but i do not see
why i should please those who will never be pleased

There is gold across the river
but i dont want none
There is gold across the river
but i dont want none

Gold is fleeting, gold is fickle, gold is fun!
Gold is fleeting, gold is fickle, gold is fun!

There is gold across the river
but i dont want none
I would rather be dry
then held up by a golden gun

saying
Work more
earn more
live more
have more fun!

saying
Work more
earn more
live more
have more fun!

saying
Work more
earn more
live more
have more fun!

TICKtickTICK

2009-02-20T21:36:00.001-06:00

The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
You’re gonna have to curse him,
Well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
If the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
Another second lost with every fallen grain.
Can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.
Another second lost with every fallen grain.

LifeIsLyrics

2009-02-20T21:24:00.001-06:00

Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder,
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older,
And now you've gone it feels as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage.
...
I don't wanna hurt you
'cause I don't think it's a virtue,
but you and I have come to our end.
Believe me when I tell you that I never want to see you again.
...

2009-02-19T21:13:00.000-06:00

A childs imagination is fascinating isn't it?

Craving

2009-02-19T21:03:00.003-06:00

The craving exceeds you. It no longer sits at the back of your throat, it's bursting off the tip of your tongue. You gave into temptation, and you're never looking back.

I made the description but the photo belongs to mehmeturgut.

Midnight Snack

2009-02-19T20:58:00.002-06:00

Everyone is wanting something. Something that all common sense would be lost for. Something that you want so bad you'd kill for it.

I made the description the picture belongs to mehmeturgut

Showmesomelove

2009-02-19T20:52:00.003-06:00

I was trying to sleep one night. But i didn't and ended up coming up with an improv speech right off the top of my head. It was awesome. I didn't think i had it in me. Apparently i proved me wrong. If anyone reads this (or gives a crap) i will post it. Because it is really crazy. It probably only makes sense to me.

Clever Phraseology

2009-02-19T18:17:00.003-06:00

Whats wrong with me
whats sour about the situation
that any lover knows that forever's only
Clever Phraseology
used by the uninsured
and the unsecured
to afford them self's time
to explore there own mobility
yeah it must be hard to live
being so sensitive
even though its so hard to give a shit
about someone else you
hypocrite
...
The thoughts that creep
while your trying to sleep
your probably better off
being blissful
in your ignorance

Advice

2009-02-19T17:58:00.002-06:00

If your gonna clean the knifes
for whatever reason
don't be
overly displeased
when you see that your bleeding
because dirty work makes a dirty man
but then again the devils got his dirty plan
for dirty boys
with idle hands

If your gonna pay a fine
for whatever service
you might find that piece of mind
don't care
how expensive your furnishing are
all work and no play make Jack a dull boy
but then depending on the methods you employ
you can blow the man
or you can blow him away

That wouldn't be Right

2009-02-19T17:47:00.002-06:00

Off the porch
we sit like leppers
who forgot about the pain
and we count the drops of rain
like vetrans gone insane
the war was just a game
the man took back our guns
the word safe won't ever mean the same

Thunderdome

2009-02-19T17:43:00.002-06:00

There's life outside the city
and it only gets prettier
the further you get
from all these humans
just drive for a couple of nights
in one general direction
I'll reckon you'll see.

Fearful

2009-02-19T17:27:00.002-06:00

I'm almost a person.
I'm almost picking up a weapon.
I'm almost sure about the long term.
Just being a whole lot a short terms.

Company

2009-02-19T17:25:00.001-06:00

So it seems i got a hole in my pocket
but I'm picking up the pieces
making it all okay.

Meaning?

2009-02-18T20:36:00.002-06:00

i do not own snow white

What do you think it means?

I have a theory.

Monkey song2

2009-02-18T18:28:00.005-06:00

I wish i was a monkey
i'd swing in the trees
i'd do my best
to imitate the man who does his best
not to imitate me
you know i'd have thumbs
just like a man
with none of the obligations
everything that i'm tied to now would be gone
gone gone gone gone gone
i'd like to be a monkey
be monkey's with you
cause i'm a monkey by myself
with a lot of shit to do
i'd like to be a monkey
be monkey's with you
cause i'm a monkey by myself
i'm in trouble with my family
i'm in trouble with the law
i'm in trouble financially
i guess you could say
i get in trouble a lot
i've danced frantically in passion
laid motionless in apathy
but all i wanna do is swing in a tree
away from the agony of love
and sex and drugs
of love
and sex and drugs
of love
and sex and drugs
and all of the lack there of
i'd like to be a monkey
be monkey's with you
cause i'm a monkey by myself
with a lot of shit to do
i'd like to be a monkey
be monkey's with you
cause i'm a monkey by myself
getting funky now
if i was a monkey
i'd be very very funky
an abundance of bananas
monkey bitches and a skunky
big red eyes and a big red ass
chillin in my monkey bungalow
made of sticks and grass
the monkey life is the life for me
not a pirate or an MC
MC spider monkey
the fly wide honkey
the king of the jungle
the pimp in the palm trees
dippin
sippin on coconut wine
flinging out my rings
bustin out my rhymes
cruisin in my pine sized escalade
smoking filly blunts in the shade
this monkeys got it made
this monkeys got it made
yeah this monkeys got it made
yeah this monkeys got it made
yeah this monkeys got it made

Friends

2009-02-18T17:09:00.002-06:00

Just let me pull this knife
from out my back
and make a couple of calls
for you my friend
let me see what i can do
despite you kickin me in the balls.

Better Man

2009-02-18T17:08:00.000-06:00

I cannot begin to understand
Why your not waking up to a better man
Then me.

Tourist

2009-02-18T16:12:00.004-06:00

Please
allow me
to introduce myself
my name is Spencer
but you can call me what you wanna
I live in a house
on a street in a town
with some people i know
and a bunny
name row boat
I gotta shirt and some pants
and some shoes and a hat
and a mouth and a nose
cause I'm cool like that
now i guess you know
all there is to know about me
I'm new in this town
wont you show me around
I'm tryin to find a place
where the good times get wasted
cause I'm facing a boredom
that borders on horrible
can we order some alcohol please?
Every now and then i take a look around myself and think
god I'm such a tourist
Other times i take a look around myself at times like right now
and i have to feel lucky of the kindness of strangers like you
I only bring it up because you look like might wanna hand some body something
I only bring it up because you look like might wanna hand some body something
and i shouldn't be me
Please
allow me
to buy another one a long island ice tea for the pretty lady
a whiskey and water for me
I'm not very good at playin piano
but nobody's here
and they got a piano
and I'll play a song for you
i got one about a lonely guy
and one that's just a lullaby but
all my songs are just about how much i hated
the women I've dated
before i came to this place
I'm new in this town
wont you show me around
i'm trying to find a place
where the good times get wasted
cause I'm facing a boredom
that borders on horrible
can we order some alcohol please?
Every now and then i take a look around myself and think
god I'm such a tourist
Other times i take a look around myself and have to feel lucky
for the things I've been handed
cause there's been a lot
a lot of things I've been handed
I dropped a lot of the things
I only bring it up because you look like might wanna hand some body something
I only bring it up because you look like might wanna hand some body something
and i shouldn't be me

A Lonesome Ballad

2009-02-18T16:05:00.001-06:00

You see its really me that I'm trying to convince...

Poker face

2009-02-18T16:04:00.000-06:00

Russian Roulette is not the same without a gun

Be proud.

2009-02-17T22:28:00.002-06:00

You should be proud of what drives you. Only if its steering you down the right roads.

this one is actually mine. If anyone comments I'll tell you the story.

What drives us partone. Inspration...

2009-02-17T22:18:00.000-06:00

Oh, the Places You'll Go! Congratulations! Today is your day. You're off to Great Places! You're off and away! You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go. You'll look up and down streets. Look 'em over with care. About some you will say, "I don't choose to go there." With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet, you're too smart to go down any not-so-good street. And you may not find any you'll want to go down. In that case, of course, you'll head straight out of town. It's opener there in the wide open air. Out there things can happen and frequently do to people as brainy and footsy as you. And when things start to happen, don't worry. Don't stew. Just go right along. You'll start happening too. OH! THE PLACES YOU'LL GO! You'll be on your way up! You'll be seeing great sights! You'll join the high fliers who soar to high heights. You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed. You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead. Wherever you fly, you'll be the best of the best. Wherever you go, you will top all the rest. Except when you don' t Because, sometimes, you won't. I'm sorry to say so but, sadly, it's true and Hang-ups can happen to you. You can get all hung up in a prickle-ly perch. And your gang will fly on. You'll be left in a Lurch. You'll come down from the Lurch with an unpleasant bump. And the chances are, then, that you'll be in a Slump. And when you're in a Slump, you're not in for much fun. Un-slumping yourself is not easily done. You will come to a place where the streets are not marked. Some windows are lighted. But mostly they're darked. A place you could sprain both you elbow and chin! Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in? How much can you lose? How much can you win? And IF you go in, should you turn left or right... or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite? Or go around back and sneak in from behind? Simple it's not, I'm afraid you will find, for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind. You can get so confused that you'll start in to race down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space, headed, I fear, toward a most useless place. The Waiting Place... ...for people just waiting. Waiting for a train to go or a bus to come, or a plane to go or the mail to come, or the rain to go or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow or waiting around for a Yes or a No or waiting for their hair to grow. Everyone is just waiting. Waiting for the fish to bite or waiting for wind to fly a kite or waiting around for Friday night or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake or a pot to boil, or a Better Break or a sting of pearls, or a pair of pants or a wig with curls, or Another Chance. Everyone is just waiting. NO! That's not for you! Somehow you'll escape all that waiting and staying. You'll find the bright places where Boom Bands are playing. With banner flip-flapping, once more you'll ride high! Ready for anything under the sky. Ready because you're that kind of a guy! Oh, the places you'll go! There is fun to be done! There are points to be scored. there are games to be won. And the magical things you can do with that ball will make you the winning-est winner of all. Fame! You'll be famous as famous can be, with the whole wide world watching you win on TV. Except when they don't. Because, sometimes, they won't. I'm afraid that some times you'll play lonely games too. Games you can't win 'cause you'll play against you. All Alone! Whether you like it or not, Alone will be something you'll be quite a lot. And when you're alone, there's a very good chance you'll meet things that scare you right out of your pants. There are some, down the road between hither and yon, that can scare you so much you won't want to go on. But on you will go though the weather be foul On you will go though your enemies prowl On you will go though the Hakken-Kraks howl Onward up many a frightening creek, though your arms may get sore and your sneakers may leak. On and on you will hike and I know you'll hike far and face up to your problems whatever they are. You'll get mixed up, of course, as you already know. You'll get mixed up with many strange birds as you go. So be sure when you step. Step with care and great tact and remember that Life's a Great Balancing Act. Just never forget to be dexterous and deft. And never mix up your right foot with your left. And will you succeed? Yes! You will, indeed! (98 and 3 / 4 percent guaranteed.) KID, YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS! So... be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shea, you're off to Great Places! Today is your day! Your mountain is waiting. So...get on your way! ---Dr. Seuss

I got a Reason

2009-02-17T22:05:00.002-06:00

Oh Jesus wont you give me amnesia.
...
I'm not that alone for a loner.

Go To Hell

2009-02-17T21:54:00.002-06:00

...
and its getting gruesome
in old Jerusalem
everybody runnin a round going Je-Hi this and Je-hi that
seems everybody forgot
why they even invented God
say i remember but it don't matter
cause i don't buy that bull shit that's right.
i don't eat trash i burn it yeah.
Oh Jesus forgive me
for being such a low down mow town junkie
yeah its hunky dory
its all water under the bridge between me and my cries
because he don't know that I'm just pretending
just encase there's actually a heaven
i sure would hate to go to hell
for thinking that i was right.

Ell Oh Vee Ee

2009-02-17T21:47:00.001-06:00

Love is more than just a game for two
...
Love was made for me and you